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Monday, May 26, 2008

so that i can come back to this always

 The past two weeks have been a crazy stream of end-of-year activites, most notably graduations. I went to a good number of them for people from my church, so I'm tempted to say that it's all been a blur. But as I think back on the highlights, and as these memories and faces float into mind, I just can't help but think, Wow, this is really special.

The first graduation is at Zellerbach. I want to congratulate Jasper, but mostly I'm here for Solomon, because I know it's been a long five years for him, and it's in the middle of the workday and I'm not sure how many people can make it. I reach the benches outside, as more of us trickle in. When he crosses the stage, the cheers are so loud that the man handing him the scroll says "You either have a really big family, or a lot of really good friends." He grins and says, "Yeah, I have both."

Dora's had a hard time of it, too. We cheer loudly, because we're so excited to see her finally walking, even if she still has to take a year of Russian in one short summer. Her cap proudly references Romans 9:16. There is a flurry of picture taking, flowers, hugs, and hearty slaps on the back before half of the crowd has to run off, because they've rushed over from work and now their lunch breaks are over.

Amy and I are late and we've missed the entire business graduation. "Are you guys taking pictures?" They reply no, even the pictures are over, too. Amy is sad because she had wanted to present a graduation gift, so we bring it to lunch instead. We get everyone to sign the jenga pieces as they eat, with illustrations and personal messages. Anybody who knocks over the tower will know who to blame.

Laura's name is accompanied by thunderous cries and applause. Outside, she is assailed by so many flowers that she literally cannot fit any more in the circle of her arms. Everybody's faces shine for her, because she has loved them all with a motherly sort of love. Her family bears striking resemblances to each other. Laura's father looks like George Lucas, but mostly it's because he's white and has a beard. Darryl has just received a job offer over the phone. He had been waiting all day for the call, because this means he can stay instead of having to return home next week. I congratulate him and he says "Thanks, this means a lot to me." I'm not sure, but I think there are tears in his eyes.

The entire theater is packed, and everyone is here now because it's Saturday. We cheer on one engineer after another, coming in late for some because we are cheering too loud for the previous person and missed the name, until someone points him out. James is busy trying to get everyone around him to cheer for someone only a few of us know, and laughs sheepishly when he realizes he's only just missed it while he was garnering support. I turn around and see Greg, visiting from Seattle. We are so glad to see him, because he has been gone a long time. I know that people must have been praying for him. Neil is here to see his brother. He will be coming up in the fall for community college, and possibly living with him. When Dave told me yesterday, I couldn't hide my amazement, and even now, I couldn't possibly be able to tell him how happy I am that he's here.

I run into Brandon and his ICA crew at the fountain. Though I have my own group, and they theirs, it is very good to see their familiar faces. I catch up with Irene and Milton, and Mike, who has come back to visit. I haven't made his zucchini bread yet, but when I've planted some I'll have so much zucchini that I will be left with no choice. I tell him I've met his friend, who has joined Amy and Dorothy's small group. He cocks his arm and says, "Yes!" I mention the chemistry graduation is tonight, and he immediately calls. Milton knows Dorothy, too. The absolute gladness in Mike's face is moving and I feel like somehow I'm seeing into a strange window, a magnificent intersection of the people God uses to touch someone's life without their even being aware of one another.

Mi Jung and her family are all the same height: that is, tiny. We can't stop laughing as they take pictures standing together, because they are so cute that we can't stand it. She seems different to me these days, quieter and older.

Evening has settled and we congregate outside, waiting for the ceremony to end because we are not allowed in. There are multitudes of friends, parents, and children who are talking, laughing, playing catch. Micah runs after Elijah's balloons, because he is not satisfied with his own. Dora is racing around, trigger-happy with her new camera. She still sounds uncertain when we compliment her on her recent haircut. I wish she knew how lovely I think she is. David tells me he is going back home to take care of the youth at his church. Katie sympathizes with him and I marvel at their heart for the high schoolers they love because I admit, I'm still terrifed of teenagers.

A cry goes out; the graduates are finally coming out. The area outside Zellerbach's door is a mass of confused, excited bodies and no one can quite find each other. Suddenly, Marcus' head emerges above the crowd. At first, he is the only one we can see because most of us are Asian and he is not. Somehow we find Amy in spite of her stature.

"No flowers, right?" I grin as I hand Amy her gift. She laughs and exclaims that she always wanted to receive a pineapple. It is too crowded, so we move toward the steps to Upper Sproul. The graduates follow and a shout goes up for each of them as they arrive, one by one, like heroes returning from battle. Faces are smiling everywhere, and it seems like everyone is here.

Amy's entire family has come, as well as her cousins-- the whole dynasty. Her mother looks happy to see us. Even her brother, normally aloof, gleefully records everything he can on video. He loves his sister, even if he can't show it. Everyone takes more pictures than will ever be needed and we are all blinded by the endless flashing lights. In a rowdy corner people whoop as it is announced that they will go to Yogurt Park, Jackson has been volunteered (not by himself) to buy, and Albert has managed to catch an internship at Google. I scan the crowd for Stephanie, one of the three who will be leaving for MIT together. I feel something special for her even though we haven't seen much of each other. There was something in that single, quiet, late-night conversation that will make me forever remember her, and it means a lot that she receives me so warmly.

At the end of the night, Katie and I reflect over boba. I ignore my sensitivity to caffeine, which turns out to be a very bad idea, but right now the boba is comforting and brings back memories. The conversation is a release, because I urgently need to share everything I have been feeling for the past two weeks. The words pour out unrestrained, and I can't stop myself from thinking, how could this be? Who has sisters and brothers like these? How many people get to stride out in their flowing black robes to be greeted by so many dozens of people who love them? I will not, must not, forget something so special and precious, the love that is so thick in the air that it seems almost tangible, the kind of fullness in life nothing on earth can bring. And in the end, these instances and others I have not recorded here, tell me There is hope.

"Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God..." -- 1 Peter 2:10
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Wow, you remembered all that? I'd say that was pretty epic.
Posted 5/27/2008 12:17 PM by malletsnsticks - reply

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i like this post! You're transforming into quite a quality woman Sue. . . WOW ^_^
Posted 5/27/2008 5:54 PM by ireniesNafrika - reply

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"a magnificent intersection of the people God uses to touch someone's life without their even being aware of one another."

my eyes teared up when i read that. it's different to "see" what i'm experiencing from a 3rd person view, especially when i'm so absorbed in something.
Posted 5/29/2008 5:19 PM by penguinconspiracies - reply


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